I have such a heavy heart today. Mostly with mixed emotions of feeling blessed, sad and excited.
I feel blessed because of 2016. Clearly 2016 was a wild ride. I lost too many friends. I had the most challenging year at work. And I made the biggest decision of my life (which felt like I was letting down a lot of people and my best friend). I decided to quit my job and travel the world. But I feel blessed because loosing my friends put my life into perspective. Having a challenging year at work made me extremely humbled. Quitting my job didn’t let down my friends, they were proud and excited of me. I would say that makes me blessed.
I also feel sad today, as I write this with watering eyes, because I said a temporary goodbye to my family. I continue to say my goodbyes leading up to Febuary 13th as I take off to Nicaragua. It hurts to see family cry. Technically causing your grandmother to cry is about the most painful feeling. My sister, my niece, my cousins, aunts, even my cat (haha) it all hurts. I know that I will see them again before I know it but I can’t help but feel a lump in my throat and ache in my heart.
And EXCITED! I am about to have the journey of a lifetime. When I close my eyes and imagine my journey and where I will be, my heart starts to flutter and beat a little faster. This has been a long time coming and I’m almost on to the next chapter.
2016 overall was huge. I saw my closest friends tie the knot, many friends engage, traveled a lot this year and made too many memories to count.
Farewell 2016, you were so last year! 🙂